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Since young, the thing I longed for and dreamt of is a tender, loving, caring, supportive and happy family. Perhaps this has got to do with the fact that I was never brought up by my parents and all these elements were missing from my childhood, hence I craved for something which I have never had. In just a few hours more, I'll be welcoming one of the most important milestones in my life - marriage and soon I will have my own family, and hopefully, I can build my own tender, loving, caring, supportive and happy family.
As I sat waiting, I wonder what all the soon-to-be brides and grooms are feeling when they were in my shoes right now, i.e. waiting for the moment to arrive. Do they feel nervous, anxious, excited, worried, paranoid or perhaps nothing at all? Personally, I just hope everything well turn out well. People might say that I'm worrying too much (especially those who followed our blog) since we started planning for our wedding very much in advance, but the fact is that there are some components in our wedding which till this very moment does not seem to be 100% ready. As Pat and I are (i) perfectionist and (ii) someone who prefer to have things finalised in advance, having this uncertainty certainly puts a stress on us mentally (and perhaps very much on Pat), especially over the last few months.
Adding fuel to flame, there is still the matter of turnout which I have shared earlier in my post. Somehow, I just have this strong feeling that there would be issues of attendance (especially so for my relatives side) and there were really unforeseen circumstance resulting in last minute absences (with regards). Some are really unfortunate and uncontrollable and I'm not blaming them, but it's just that there is this imperfection in the planning which bothers me and I really wonder if I have made the right choice (at the start) to keep the banquet small? But there's nothing I can do now and the wedding is just hours away and all I can is hope for the best.
As I look back on the 998 days since we have decided to embark on the journey as a couple together, it is indeed an amazing journey, and rather an unbelievable one. From acquaintance to friends to lovers - never do I imagine I would one day cross the line from friend to lover as friendship is an important aspect in my life. Nonetheless, the journey together have been sweet, beautiful and memorable. There are moments where we get into disputes but most of the times, it had been good. Now on this 999 days together, we will be making commitments to each other, vowing to be together for better, for worse, for richer, for poorer, in sickness and in health, till death do us part. Looking forward to the many days ahead of us.
PS: I love you, Patricia.
